I've talked about my family issues alot here, but I honestly use it as a source of therapy, so don't mind me. LOL
Just getting my feelings out.
My family moved to the Philippines, back when the whole COVID lockdown was happening, and honestly it's been getting harder and harder dealing with them lately. Especially right after the holidays have hit, I've been feeling more and more disconnected from my family than ever.
For one thing, as soon as they move out of the country, my family didn't even bother to keep in touch with me. But during the rare occasions they do contact me, they're always asking me for favors.
Such as, my mom asking if my little sister could move in with me and my fiancee, and if we can pay for her expensive therapy sessions. My mom, contacting me during my birthday, just so she could borrow some money. My dad, asking if I could buy him some stuff that they don't have back in the Philippines, such as electronics or shoes, and whatnot. It's freaking ridiculous.
Today, my sister contacted me right out of the blue, and told me there was a good chance they couldn't make it to my wedding due to the high number of COVID cases in my area.
I understand very well that COVID is a good freaking excuse, I know that, I get that, but I can't help but think they actually just don't want to be there for my wedding. Especially, given the fact that they didn't let COVID ruin their plans to move out of the freaking country!
Ahaha, I'm trying to stay strong, but I wish my family cared about me. All my parents have done is leave me with some money, and ignore me. I've tried several times to reach out to my sisters, but they only talk to me when it's convenient for them, and it hurts.
Recently, I invited my aunt and my cousin to my bridal shower this coming January, and I was really hoping they'd make it. Of course, they sighted COVID as their reasons for not going, but I can't help but feel like they didn't want to go. Right after my parents and my sisters moved out of the country, my aunt and my cousin have been the only family I have that would keep in contact with me. They were the only family I invited to my bridal shower, and of course, they aren't going. At this point, I don't know why I'm even surprised when they've never bothered showing up for my high school and college graduation. At the end of the day, I get it, and I understand, but I'm just disappointed. It's just kinda saddening to know that none of my own family will be there for my bridal shower.
I love my fiancee's family, they've done their best to make me feel included, they always include me in all their holiday traditions, they always give me lots of gifts, and so on. Even my soon to be aunt in law, is throwing me this bridal shower for me, and I'm so grateful for that. I love them, and I appreciate them so much.
I just wish my family would do the same. I just wish they cared about me, even a little bit.
