Our wedding is in 79 days and our families and wedding party are making me feel like I am going to have a mental breakdown (as if I haven't already had one). I truly don't see it but maybe I am missing something. My MIL bailed out of the contracts she was going to pay for, these are also the things she demanded we have at the wedding, because we decided on a taco bar for dinner. One of our groomsmen and my FIL tried fighting at the end of our engagement party (thank you beeritas). My maid of honor started dating one of our groomsmen and now he wont even speak to me anymore because of all the things she has said to him about me. My bridal shower/in town bach party was this passed weekend. It was so beautiful and my girls did amazing on the whole thing but once we went out to the bars there was so much drama I got overly annoyed with everybody. My maid of honor then left me to go be with her boyfriend and I had to hitch hike home with a stranger. My stepdad that same evening treated my mother awful and I got mad at him.
So long story short I haven't said anything about the drama of the wedding to most of the wedding party until Saturday when I actually got very upset with most of them for all the drama and leaving me and told them it was supposed to be my day and all they cared about was who I invited out and being with their boyfriends. I do not handle conflict very well and don't voice my feelings well. When I get pushed to the edge I snap and I get mean. They all said I am a bridezilla and don't want to help with anymore planning if they don't have to(my fiancé travels for work so I've done a lot myself). I am about to break down and call the whole wedding off. I miss my maid of honor and my friends so much. If I'm being awful I don't mean to. I have just stressed and overwhelmed dealing with it all on my own and finally just snapped. I am not a bad person and am such a people pleaser and do everything for my friends and family, but right now I am feeling like crap. None of them barely speak to me and I don't know if I should reach out or just accept the fact these next few weeks I am on my own.
I need help! I am so upset I want to cancel the whole wedding but my fiancé said he would never let that happen because he wants to marry me even if we do it alone (he is an angel, been together 8 years)
