Hi all,
I guess I am just here to vent and get a little support and am curious for opinions, since I am an emotional wreck. 
My original wedding date was in October 2020 - - obviously we could not move forward with our original plan due to COVID. We got married anyway, with a 20 person COVID compliant ceremony and dinner. I was able to wear my dress and it was nice. But it wasn't the same without all our family (my SIL, who would have been my MOH couldn't even attend) , friends, etc, so we agreed that we'd still have a reception, which was meant to be October 2021. It wasn't the same but still felt exciting. Well, September rolled around and my mom, who had been sick most of the year, passed away. Her funeral was 3 weeks before our reception date, so we made the decision to postpone again. I'm now struggling with what to do. The venue has been great and has given us a lot of dates for the first half of next year, with no increase on fees or rates, they will help secure vendors, etc. But it feels like the magic is gone. Now I am looking at a reception after I've been married 1.5 years? Is it ridiculous to move forward? Would I feel like an idiot parading around in my wedding dress (which of course, I'd want to wear!). On the other hand, there is a part of me that is devastated - - getting all our people together to celebrate my most important life event doesnt' seem like it should be too much to ask, but yet maybe it is... Any advice?
