First and foremost, I apologize and feel guilty for even reaching out on here regarding this. I can only speak with my loved ones about this so much without passing on the stress and worry to them. I am getting married June 8th 2019, so 9 days from now. I am disabled and have multiple chronic conditions, all related to the trauma that caused my disability in 2012. My biggest fear wedding wise was that I would go into a flare up right before the wedding. A flare up means being bed ridden, in excruciating pain (so severe as to cause vomiting and fainting), loss of range of motion and the ability to walk, possible hospitalization, etc. I have been working with my medical team to try and make sure that I would be in the best condition possible for the wedding. Even so, I started going into a flare about a week and a half ago and have been on bed rest, taking medication as prescribed, having help from friends and family to assist with groceries and basic house keeping, and even have had my massage therapist make a house call with another scheduled for Monday, June 3rd.
I am doing everything I can to pass this flare and stop it from getting to that point. I am terrified that I will be in a full flare for our wedding and I am so upset. I'm trying so very hard not to wallow in self pity, but I feel so defeated. I could really use some well wishes, positive vibes, and prayers. I would be ever so grateful. Thank you.
