On Sunday we’ll have been married for FOUR WEEKS. I seriously can’t believe how quickly this month has gone by, and it’s been a whirlwind of emotions. The first week after our honeymoon was absolute bliss... I don’t think I stopped smiling for days.
But then as the reality of life started to settle back in, I definitely felt like the high started to crash and I’ve started to feel really down, and then frustrated at myself for feeling this way because I finally am married and have everything I’ve ever wanted, what right do I have to feel down about things??
I’ve done a lot of reading up on post-wedding blues (something I always scoffed at before I was married, but now I get it) and I’m trying to be kinder to myself. It really is like the emotional equivalent of a sugar crash... having the best time of your life and then going back to real life, will make real life seem extremely depressing in comparison. It got to the point where looking at our wedding photos made me sad. But I’m trying to appreciate the present rather than just obsessing about the wedding—what was perfect, what we should’ve done differently, etc. I think my doing that for the past few weeks was my way of keeping the wedding alive. Adjusting to “being married” was nothing... husband and I are the same as ever. But adjusting to “post-wedding life” is a different story... I wish I had been more prepared for this!
I am hoping that these things will level out with time as we really adjust into this stage of our lives. I’m pretty settled in my job, we’re not thinking about kids for another year or so, and we’re not moving for a little while either. I was thinking I needed a new project but instead, I am trying to take a step back and appreciate the calm of this time rather than rushing into the next thing.
Don’t get me wrong... I am SO happy and so grateful—we had the most perfect wedding, and I’m married to the most wonderful man! I just wanted to write this because I wish I had been more prepared to feel like this. Like I said, I always scoffed at the idea of “post-wedding blues” (oh poor spoiled brides who aren’t appreciating how good they have it! 🙄) but it really is like an emotional sugar crash, and I think knowing that this MAY happen to you would make it a lot easier to deal with if it does.
I think I had been viewing the wedding as the end goal, and feeling lost now that it was reached. But instead, I’m now trying to look at it as the first chapter of a new story.
And also enjoy these pics because they’re not making me sad anymore... I can’t stop smiling at them!
