Cancelled wedding support

Hi everyone! I'm Gio. Originally a bride of may 2nd 2020, then October 2nd 2020, November 21st and finally cancelled wedding. While me and my husband did get married on our original date we had intended to postpone but finally decided to cancel permanently. For everyone out there who sti wants to go through their weddings amidst everything, my best wishes. That is a very personal decision and in not trying to tell anyone they should cancel. We decided to do so because some of our family member's fell ill with COVID As well as some of our vendors. We finally decided to give up as we don't see this coming to an end anytime soon and the idea of hurting our loved ones kills us. So we took a financial loss and lost all of our deposits but decided it is our best option. While I know this is the best decision for us. I'm having a really hard time letting go of that magical day I planned in my head and the thought of never wearing my dress makes me incredibly sad. I know this is super dumb considering how much more people have lost during these times and how much suffering there is in the world, but I can't help it. I'm very sad. So that's why I'm here! Hoping to get some support, some words that could help me push through this and focus on the positives and maybe do the same for someone going through the same.

Thank you!
-Gio