So I am getting married April 17th, 2020 in Los Angels and it's a large wedding with 230 guest. Of those guest only about 90 are my invites ( FH has a large family and a lot of coworkers he works directly with). 10 of my family members live in Mexico and have already arranged to come out for my wedding. Thanks to the coronavirus they are seriously considering canceling their trip. I am devastated! I full on bawled because I never imagined not having my family there. I have one grandparent left and she lives in Mexico. Even when my FH and I joked about eloping I said as long as my Abuelita was there it was ok but now she may not come at all. I understand that everyone needs to consider there safety and I don't want anything happening to them but it kills me thinking they may not make it. I know it is selfish to expect them to come out if their is a true risk but part of me wants to yell, scream, and basically throw a tantrum until they agree they won't cancel their flight. I am already really nervous being in front of so many people know that half of them are still kind of strangers, and it just multiplied thinking that the faces I want to see the most (besides my FH and my parents) may not be there. I know I could be worrying for nothing because they could still end up coming but this virus seems to be getting worse not better.
In the end I will understand if they cancel but it doesn't change that it's not what I ever pictured when getting married. Now I am concerned because I have other friends and family that live out of state also. 2 of my bridesmaids live out of California. Most of this was a way to vent because I feel like I'm about to burst into tears every few minutes. Is anyone else struggling with the same thing?
