Covid-19 Weddings & Friends Disregarding Guidelines

My fiánce and I (engaged in 2018) were originally planning to get married in July of 2020 - of course we had to postpone. We chose to plan our wedding in the Chicago suburbs where restrictions are enforced/stricter than a lot of other areas in the state of Illinois. Several of our friends got engaged in 2019 and went ahead with their 2020 weddings of 150+ people despite the guidelines. We went to 3 full-blown (maskless) weddings last year, all of which were only able to take place because no one takes the virus/guidelines seriously in those areas. Throughout the year I grew increasingly frustrated that my fiánce and I did what we felt was the right thing by postponing and following guidelines, and yet none of our friends did the same. But, we had the reassurance that we would still have the wedding we wanted, and safely, in 2021.



Now, it is apparent that our new wedding date (5/15/21) is likely in jeapordy as well and we will probably be having a small wedding of 50 or fewer people even after postponing (we originally invited 150). My fiánce and I both feel crushed about this, and also feel incredibly alone when we look at how everyone else we know completely disregarded the virus and had the weddings they wanted (unhindered). We will get married in May regardless as we want to move on with our lives. But I'm just curious, is anyone else struggling with a similar situation or similar feelings?