I've really been struggling friendship-wise for the past few years. Long story short, I had a great group of friends all through college, and towards the end of my junior/beginning of my senior year, they basically all turned against me... started with just not inviting me to things, and ended with them all flat out not talking to me anymore. Still don't know why! I'm not still mourning the loss of those friendships or anything (honestly I'm glad to not be wasting any more time on people like that) but since I graduated a year ago with literally not 1 lasting friend from college, I've felt a bit discouraged. The good thing is, although I don't have a lasting "friend" from college, I did meet my FH in college! But the "bad" thing is, my FH has literally dozens of friends that he's still in touch with from college (not just a few scattered friends, like he has entire GROUPS of friends that still hang out constantly!) and they're ALL coming to the wedding.
I'm really genuinely happy for him that he has such great friendships and so many people there for him. But I can't help feeling a pit in my stomach that I wish more of my friends were there for me. All week, his friends have been texting him asking how things are going, if he's excited, if he needs help with anything, etc. Most of my friends (who are all friends from childhood and from high school) have been silent (even most of my bridesmaids haven't even reached out--and a couple that did, have been beyond self-absorbed, basically just texting me to rant about their own problems, even though I'm getting married in 4 days).
Beyond that, our wedding is Sunday and our rehearsal is Saturday, so we were thinking of having dinner on Friday night just with people who are around. We invited all of our groomsmen and bridesmaids. ALL of FH's groomsmen are coming, and are super excited about it. Out of my bridesmaids: one won't be in town yet, one will have just landed but wants to spend "alone time" with her girlfriend and another one of our friends, one will be "tired from work" (dinner is at 7:30), and one has a graduation party.
Honestly, I'm not mad or annoyed at anyone individually. I just am feeling so upset that I'm now going to be starting out my wedding weekend with FH and his groomsmen (basically feeling like I'm sixth wheeling at his bachelor party...) and that none of my friends are prioritizing me. I know, people are busy, I shouldn't expect this much from them, and like I said, I'm not annoyed or upset with anyone in particular. I'm just feeling so discouraged and depressed and wished that I had friends that would be more present for me. And, while I'm very happy that FH has friends who are ALWAYS there for him, it does feel like it's being rubbed in my face a little--not to anyone's fault, but still.
My FH can't stop talking about how excited he is to see his friends, and to get ready in the morning with them, etc. and I'm just over here like....... I can't relate??? And I desperately wish that I could???
Is anyone else feeling like this? 
