Feeling disheartened

I just need to vent a bit because nothing seems to be going right 🙁


So my fiancé and I have been together for 7 years, we got engaged in 2019, and planned our wedding for Aug 2020. We both have big Irish families, so big weddings are important to them and us. Sometimes it’s the only time everyone sees each other especially if people are really spread out which is the case with our families.
Then the world shuts down, I can’t leave my apartment for months because I’m immunosuppressed from my MS medication and we reschedule the wedding for Aug 2021. On a bike ride in Sept 2020 I badly break my leg and have to have surgery to repair it. It takes 3 months before I can walk and we decide to push the wedding again to Oct 2021 to give people more time to get the vaccine. I continue having pain in my leg and can’t walk without a cane. I switch Drs and find out the fracture never healed, they have no idea why, and I have to have another more invasive surgery to repair it. Did the surgery 6 weeks ago, I’m healing, and hoping things are finally looking up. Just to find out important family members can’t come to the wedding because of a combination of things.
Now we have to decide if we go forward with the wedding without these family members or if try to move it again (if our vendors will even let us do that again 🤷‍♀️). I know none of this is the end of the world and there’s people dealing with much worse then this. I’m just so disheartened by it all and afraid I’ll have a whole bunch of negative feelings associated with something that’s suppose to be about celebration. Thanks for listening ❤️