Not really melancholy because I know the reason but sad...
I knew this day would come I just didn't expect it to hit me like a 5 ton truck. I have been super stressed lately getting everything together as we leave in 2 days for our DW. But today... it hit me. One of my bridesmaids sent me a picture of my sister from 8 years ago at a breast cancer walk we did and I haven't been able to stop crying. In January of this year my sister took her life. Its been 8 1/2 months since I got that call that she was no longer here but today of all days it hit me. We were always really close and to think she won't be there for my big day is really killing me. I've known for 8 1/2 months that she wouldn't be there and I knew it would be hard but I seriously haven't been able to stop crying today. I just hope I don't spend my whole wedding day crying...
Any advice on how to not cry that whole day? I am naturally very emotional so it being my sister its just tenfold!