This is just a little vent shesh for myself so I don't have a mental breakdown
I've been feeling a bit selfish for how NOT interested in this wedding I am.. Obviously I want to get married but this wedding I'm planning just isn't it. I get told over and over again "well this is your wedding so make sure you do what you want" Like yeah OK i get that but whenever I tell that person what i truly want (usually FMIL) they turn their nose up and say "well why would you want to do that, that's not a real wedding" umm you just got finished saying "its what you want" so how you gonna go and say that??
FH wants a big wedding and I want to give him that and I'm trying so hard to do the best of both worlds. Have a big wedding for him but keep it as simple as possible for me.
I made the mistake of making the comment (this is talking about bridesmaid dresses) "I just really don't care, I just want them to feel comfortable" and my FSIL makes the snarky comment "Well its probably not a good thing that you don't care about your wedding" ... this really ticked me off... I care about marrying the love of my life, I care about having my loved ones around, I care about my MARRIAGE. So what if I'm not excited about the flowers or table decor or any of the frufru waste money Items, that means I don't care about my wedding?? I'm just over it but I also get that my family (mom, FMIL, grandma) will likely only get to do this once so i feel selfish that I'm not putting more effort into these things.
Am I the only one feeling this way?? I'm just not about this 'planning a wedding so it looks good on social media' that I feel so many wedding are turning in to. I just want to marry my best friend... 215ish days to try and convince him to elope