I just am tired of asking for assistance and people being unreliable. I want to ask my FH can we elope, But i'm kinda scared I would hurt his feelings. I'm just not really excited anymore since the whole covid started. I just feel like I wont be able to get things moving. I think Im just really scared of being disappointed. Just not being able to show my vision like I would like to. Should I ask or just go with the flow of things and wait things out. I have so
much anxiety it kinda messes up my excitement.