Hey Hey,
I am going anon on this because I feel so stupid and this feels incredibly self indulgent and ridiculous but here goes... It's been almost 6 months since my wedding day and although I know in my heart and soul the day was quite literally the most wonderful day and I know everyone attending felt the same, these thoughts are continuously clouded by how much I regret and how sad I feel about how I looked on the day.
I'll start by saying I planned my wedding from 5000 miles away and it was tough.
Here's my irks. The initial dress I bought, I hated from the get go, I then pushed aside that hate because everyone told me it was beautiful and by the time I finally accepted I hated it, I had to find a new dress off the rack that was 4 sizes to large for me, altered badly, and quite frankly boring as hell.
Then my hair, my hair stylist just couldn't manage my hair, and by the time I realized this again, it was too late. So I opted to wear it all down, I am going to assume because of the thickness of my hair she didn't blow dry it properly and pinned it to be curled. When the pins were took out the only part of my hair styled was the ends, it literally looked like I had let it dry natural and curled the ends with an ironing tong. I do my own hair down better for work! Then to my utmost surprise and in a moment of craziness, I asked her to pin back the front, in a style I never wear and my god does it not flatter my face one bit.
So that brings me to my photos, my photos are amazing.. of everyone else. I opted not to wear fake tan on the day but the kind of filter my photographer uses makes me look grey! Dull! I looked a nice light tan color and my makeup was lovely but you can't see any of it! Not to mention my husband is tan naturally so it makes me look even more dull than normal!
We had a beautiful outdoor venue and in those pics my hair has completely lost any curl it had due to the wind, my veil is hanging off my head and I look like I have zero makeup on. I look like an ugly brunette version of Legolas! It literally drives me mad that any other photo I have of me is nicer than my own wedding photos.
I don't even have any guest photos because we requested no guest photos for the ceremony and that kind of continued throughout the day.
Please help me, I need to shake this off, I feel like a freaking idiot but I can't get over it! It's the biggest day of my life, I don't plan on having another wedding again (touch wood I won't have too) so I am just totally gutted, I guess.
