Hoping this helps mum brides avoid my situation. I'm so angry at my wedding.

I just needed somewhere to put this. It keeps me up at night and I'm so upset.
I got married 3rd June 2023. It was a postponed wedding as we are both NHS. Because of this the wedding was bigger and ALOT more expensive that we anticipated. I organized the entire thing, and for 4 years but my heart and sole and handmade everything.
I'm also a mum to a 10 month old girl.I wanted to hire a babysitter during the wedding, my mum said she, and a friend she begged me to have at the wedding to help her would look after her.The wedding day came, my mum was asking me for makeup, changed her mind on her hair, asked me questions about her own getting ready while I was trying and didn't look after my girl so she didn't have the nap in the cot I sorted for her. I asked them to get her dressed and feed her.
I'm now at the aisle. My girl has 2 layers on in 26 degree heat! So I start unwrapping her mid ceremony as I'm standing in the aisle. The romper under her wedding dress was the wrong way round and not buttoned, so my pictures of her at the ceremony are going to annoy me no end. She then cried because she was hungry. Noone had fed her pre ceremony! My mum didn't have milk prepared. She had food and took her to the back but my little one needed milk. Baring in mind my girl isn't a cryer. After the ceremony I paused the confetti bit to sort her romper out the right way. The wedding venue trying to rush me.
I spent the day running round trying to look for her bag that my mum was supposed to have with her stuff. I fed her. Mum socializing with her friends and having a great time. Completely oblivious. Tried putting her to bed but now she was overtired hot and hungry. 2 wedding guests tried to help through dinner for me to try and enjoy myself, 2 people that didn't know her routine or how to put her to sleep. They missed their food. I remember good bits to my wedding, but I'm angry at my mum, angry at myself for not doing it myself in the morning because I wanted to feel like a bride and enjoy getting ready.
It's really out a damper on my memories. I'm so upset. My pictures of us 3 will be terrible and I just remember running round not socializing being stressed. I can't tell anyone how I feel as they get upset I didn't have a good day.
I tried to talk to my partner, he says why am I being so negative, he had a great day.
I wish I could tell my mum how angry I am but I can't, it would hurt her, but I'm the bad one for being angry.
How do I stop being so angry, or has anyone at least felt like this?.
Thankyou😭