Hello,
Does anyone experience cynicism about marriage and weddings like I do at times? Sometimes I wake up the morning and look at my wedding planner and cringe. I went through the planning process before when I was 22 and really unsure. I ended up cancelling two weeks before the wedding. That was 5 years ago, but sometimes I still feel badly about how it went (but relieved I didn't marry him). Now I am 26 but have had so many very serious relationships not work out (3 relationships of 2-3 years each) and some passionate flings in between that were really devestating that I thought were lasting love. Maybe this is normal.
I love my fiance, and he is my best friend. I want to believe it will be a good move to get married, but sometimes I am very touchy about it. I want to believe not just in lasting marriage but happy, lasting marriage. My parents are at 30 years, but they don't even try to relate anymore. It's sad to me. How do you get past that stuff and rejoice?