My family got into a fight about my wedding and I am having a hard time getting over it. I need some advice and maybe some support.
My cousin and I were both engaged at Christmas in 2019. I was 23, my cousin was 29. My fiance and I were not planning to live together before the wedding and he was planning to move for work at the end of 2020. So we picked a date at our church for September 2020. We announced our date at a family New Years party and my other cousin who was engaged stormed out. She had apparently picked October 2020, 5 weeks after ours. She wanted Fall of 2020 to be her season and she wasn't okay with me getting married first because she is older. A massive family fight broke out at the party. The only one who took my side was my dad. Everyone else told me I had to move my date at least to spring of 2021 to give my cousin space.
My fiance and I talked and didn't want to move our date. We wanted to be married before he had to move for work because in our faith we can't move in together without being married. We are Christians but I wasn't raised Christian so my family doesn't really get or like this. My grandfather from the other side of the family also has advancing dementia, so I wanted him to be able to come to the wedding. We didn't want to delay the wedding for those reasons, but also because we liked our date and our plan and didn't think any of this was a big deal.
I told my cousin I didn't want to move the date and she lost it. She said horrible things to me about how I'm a religious freak and an attention w****. She got my whole extended family in on it and multiple people harassed me. She also called my grandma every day and the stress of it made her ill. So I eventually gave in and moved my date.
I never told my family what my cousin said to me because I didn't want to sink to her level. It felt like once I made the decision to move the date we should let it go. But my family only got my cousin's side of the story and they all now think I'm a jerk who was trying to beat her to the punch and steal her thunder. I didn't even know her date when I picked mine. Also my cousin hasn't spoken to me since. She got married and I didn't go.
Now my grandfather is in a nursing home so he can't come. My grandmother from the cousin's side asked if he is coming and I told her no because he is in a home. She said "you caused all these problems over the wedding for a man who can't even come?" I said that wasn't the whole reason and then I excused myself to go cry in the bathroom. She didn't know I was crying.
I don't know what to do. I don't want to stir the pot by saying things about my cousin and what she did, but I hate being blamed for this and all the constant comments and everything. It makes me wish I never invited my family to my wedding. I should be happy this close to my day, but I'm just sad and hurt and angry. I would appreciate any advice.