i found my dress But....

I have been to multiple bridal stores every dress I've tried on has made me feel self-cautious and made me feel like a 🐳 until today. I walked into this bridal store and I was so unsure if I'd find a dress or not if I will feel unattractive and not feel excited to be a bride as I look into the mirror in a wedding dress. I met my bridal consultant and I got a great vibe from her n I started trying on dresses and then she goes " girl I got the perfect dress for you since I told her I was really wanting to try on am dress with a corset." So she comes back with the DRESS I've saved on my Pinterest like 10 times because I loved it the moment I saw it. I tried it on and I fell in love on how it fit like a glove plus it was a sample size but I didn't say anything to my mom because I wanted to see what her thoughts were on the dress but by the look on her face she didn't love it at all. I thought she would since it's way under the budget she gave me for what she gave me for my dress budget. So we left the store without my dress we we're supposed to go back after we went to have lunch. So once we got back in the car she mentions how my bridal consultant was nosey since she was asking about our venue n what kind of wedding I was wanting and how me and my FH met amd etc... I told my mom how it's her job to ask those questions and that she wasn't being nosey. My mom thinks the whole wedding dress shopping is overrated but then again when she got married her parent's couldn't afford to get her a wedding dress so she wore her prom dress as her wedding dress. Her comment was can't you get a dress from the mall... 🙅 sorry that wasn't my dream to wear a dress I picked out at the mall. Then she said "oh that dress must not be your dress because you didn't cry," I told her well I don't cry really over stuff I mean I didn't cry when I gave birth to my children but then again I grew up where we wasn't allowed to show our feelings🤔 So I went home empty handed no dress but I called the lady who helped me and asked about how much to put down to put my name on it n take it off the floor. So its $100 to put down then 60% half of the price by 90 days. I told my FH n he's like I think you should wait.. We got 10 months till our wedding its like how much time do I wait😠😤😫 then I showed my FMIL n she loves the dress on me😍 that made me feel great if only my own mother felt the same😔😭. I sent one of my bridesmaids the picture of me in the dress and she wasn't a fan then I'm thinking to myself and thinking I look fat in it that's why she doesn't like it. I feel like ppl who should be happy for me that I felt sexy in a dress and it fit me perfectly they only want to ruin my happiness.

I'm here in tears feeling alone and feeling not beautiful over here😭😭😭😭👎