Ugh, I just want to elope! If I could have it my way, it would be me and my fiancé, our two witnesses/best man and matron of honor, and maybe both sets of parents, and that's a solid maybe.
I never wanted to get married in the first place--everyone in my family has been divorced a minimum of 1 times, some more, and I just didn't want to risk it. Then I spent five years with my fiancé and realized there was perhaps one person in the world I wanted to marry. Seeing as I never dreamed of a big wedding, keeping it as small and intimate as possible sounds nice to me.
Thing is, I have a huge family. I mentioned those divorces, right? Yeah, well, everyone has too many kids to count, too. There are so many cousins. Sometimes I lose track of aunts and uncles, still. 50 people is the absolute smallest we can make the list, and even that feels like a lot. It's too much for most micro-wedding packages.
So yeah, I'd like to carve it down to my four parents, my fiancé's two parents, and our two witnesses. So 10 people, counting the two of us. That sounds heavenly, but...
But my matron of honor/witness is my older sister, she's also my only full blood sibling in a blended family, if I were to bring just her to the wedding and no other siblings it would start a favoritism riot. I know my littlest sister would be absolutely crushed if a sibling was invited and she wasn't, and I would never want to hurt any of them. I don't have a best friend I could substitute to be a maid of honor instead to avoid any favoritism by not having family.
But it's just so stressful, planning a wedding, and I'm not even really planning it yet!
Part of me wants to jump in a car and drive to Vegas, then just come back and announce that the deed is done. If only weddings really were just about the happy couple, then I could have the intimate wedding of my dreams without worrying about offending anyone.
Sorry, I really needed to vent this to someone other than my fiancé. They're very sympathetic, but there's only so many times they can hear me go off about "running away from it all".