My wedding is planned for November 25th, 2020 and planning was actually going smooth until COVID happened and on top of that our governor handled it so poorly that my state became a hot spot. Now in a normal setting, this would still be okay. We'd cut the guest list to 50 and proceed. The problem is that my mom has Lupus and is high risk. She's been my priority. My nana who has diabetes and Lupus and is over 65 is also high risk, but she seems more loose with the rules and still has her kids/grand kids over. My mom isn't able to see anyone under doctor's orders (Lupus isn't her only illness, but it's the only one that makes her high risk.) We decided, okay let's do immediate family and very close friends only. Max would be 18 people. It was planned to always keep my mom and step-dad six feet from everyone and to still be distanced from everyone else as much as we could and everyone wear masks, ceremony outside, etc, etc. That was until my mom had a very bad month of July. She's still not doing great. On top of that, my brother, our best man, just got diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis making him now high risk as well. He's okay being around my fiance and I, but I don't know how he'll feel about everyone else (my FH's family is mostly coming from another hot spot state.)
I feel so defeated now that we may just end up eloping and will try to have our original plans postponed to next year. The thing is, I don't even know if next year will be safer for my loved ones. I don't even have the energy to think about continuing to plan and guess and hope that it can happen next year and I can finally have my mom be by my side on that special day. It's heartbreaking. My fiance says that even if it's just us two it will be special, and I agree. But it isn't our choice to be just us two and I think that's what's killing me.
On top of this my soon to be sister-in-law and maid of honor still hasn't gotten her dress even though I sent her all of the info and she even helped pick the dress she liked best. This was back in February before anything shut down. She asked if we still wanted her to go spend money and get a fancy dress, since 'to be honest she doesn't think we should dress up since it's just us.' She asked what time the ceremony was because she was going to look at booking flights and I was about to tell her when I was like "why would she need to know this for booking a flight? Is she planning on flying in same day?" So I asked my FH to text and ask and she said she wasn't sure yet, and also that she might catch a flight right after to spend Turkey Day with her kids (this part I don't mind.) By the way she didn't even book any flight at all. It just makes me feel like she doesn't really care to be there and isn't treating it like it's our freaking wedding and only the most special day of our lives! The other problem is my FH's dad is probably just going to follow suit on what she does so if they end up with a same day flight, we'll have to cross our fingers they don't get delayed. Just ridiculous.
I just needed to let this all out somewhere. Thanks for listening. Still not sure what we're going to do. I told them we'd let them know by the end of this coming week so that they have time to book their possibly same day flights *rolls eyes* lol