I want to elope, but I'm afraid it's going to escalate family drama on my side and also offend my FH's family.
My FH and I have been wedding planning for around two months. From the beginning we have joked about eloping, but thinking of the potential blowback from family on both sides, we decided to plan a small park ceremony with 30 guests and then take them on a dinner cruise afterward. For a wedding day that is small, budget-friendly, and memorable, this checks off all of our boxes. But lately I'm finding myself becoming less and less enamored with the idea of having a wedding at all. To use Marie Kondo's phrase, "it doesn't spark joy" sharing such an intimate moment with anyone but my FH. None of our friends and family know us that well as a couple, so I feel bashful sharing my wedding day with them.
On top of that, there has been a lot of (non-wedding related) drama on both sides of our family lately. I can't speak for my FH's feelings about his family, but regarding my feelings about my own family members....it's complicated. Having (several of) them at the wedding would be more out a sense of obligation and propriety, rather than me genuinely wanting to share this day with them. I feel like a cold, ungrateful brat for feeling this way.
Eloping sounds so appealing to the two of us. Neither of us think that we would have regrets if we chose to do this over a traditional ceremony. But I'm afraid that eloping would make the family drama worse, especially on my side. I wish we were somehow already married, because when I really think about it, I don't care about having a wedding, I just want to be with my FH, living our lives together.
Should I just suck it up for the sake of keeping the peace?