My wedding is in 25 days, and I honestly thought it was gonna be a tiny bit easier to handle, since everything planning related is done, and now all I have to do is just finish up with last minute payments.
However, collecting RSVPS have been an uphill battle, and I have really been slowly losing my insanity. I've already sent out RSVP reminders, reminding people to get their RSVPs in by the deadline, and I made sure to make a point to mention to everyone that my fiancée and I are doing everything we can to ensure the safety of our guests. I even made sure to make a point in mentioning all over our wedding website, insuring guests that we're doing whatever we can to make it as safe as possible.
While many guests that have RSVPed yes are looking forward to it, I can't help but think of the small minority that are against it.
My parents have made it a point to paint me as a villain for still having my wedding. I've already accepted the fact that they aren't going, and I've made peace with it, BUT I don't know why they have to go out of their way saying I'm a horrible freaking person, the worse kind of trash alive, literally to the point that their blaming me for COVID. It's gotten so bad that I don't even talk to them anymore.
Now, while we're in the midst of collecting RSVPS, and some guests who declined going, for some reason made a point telling my fiancee and I that we're making a mistake, and that we should just cancel. Listen, I don't mind if people RSVP us "NO", I understand and I get why they won't feel comfortable with going, but nothing bothers me more than the guests that decline their invitation, and think it's appropriate to say something like "Congrats, but I think you're making the worse decision of your life and you should cancel".
Now even my future MIL is voicing out her concerns, encouraging us to just have a tiny wedding now, and have the reception later.
I just wish they'd understand that it's too late for that. Our venue won't allow it, and if we cancel, even postpone our wedding now we're losing over $10,000. In the first place, I don't want to postpone, I don't want to cancel. I have been so depressed lately, and the only thing keeping me going is the wedding. It's the only thing I've had to look forward to, the only thing keeping me going, and I wish people understood that. It's not something a professional can help me with, It's not like I can just go up and cancel everything one month out, and lose literally all the time and money we've invested. I'm not that strong of a person.