Insecure

View Quoted Comment To be honest I think that’s a normal human reaction and many of us, myself included, would feel the same way!
It’s easier to pretend they don’t exist but if you’re not comfortable with them, bring it up with your husband perhaps. He may think it’s an overreaction since they’re friends only but there’s no harm in making sure he knows how you feel.

View Quoted Comment He knows how I feel. I guess all of this just comes down to me not feeling good enough. I feel like he used porn as a way to be intimate with me because I wasn't as experienced as the other girls he had been with.

View Quoted Comment This is where I think he needs to feel more comfortable in teaching you things perhaps. You can’t expect someone to do things a certain way if you don’t tell them. It can be an intimidating conversation to have but on both sides if you don’t like something or you want something new for example, it won’t just magically happen on its own!
If he won’t initiate the conversation then maybe bring it up with him and ask him what he likes, what hasn’t been tried yet that he wants to try etc. This will also allow you to voice your wants.

View Quoted Comment Well maybe the alcohol gave him the courage to speak on it, but I think you should try to still engage in a full blown open conversation about it. Be honest and stern. Tell him how this has made you feel empty and uncertain. Maybe even go to a park and text him all of this first. That way he has time to process the situation in order to avoid a possible argument by potentially catching him off guard with confronting him. IMO even if you have an amazing relationship otherwise, sexual insecurity/secrets/confusion are some of the things that can make couples feel like they don’t even know who their spouses are at that point. I’ve gone through something similar in the past so if you need someone to listen further, feel free to DM me at any point♥️

View Quoted Comment Thank you so much!!! I'm trying not to let it bother me.