Lack of bridesmaids/men?

I am having a real hard time deciding how many bridesmaids to have and if we should have any at all.


I don’t have many close friends anymore... we’ve all just grown apart and I’ve moved out of the state and rarely visit my home state. In my new state, I have friends but we aren’t close like the ones I grew up with (though we aren’t as close anymore because of the distance).
I’m having such a hard time deciding who’s going to be in my party and it’s making me sad :[. There’s one friend for sure that I will ask, who’s my best friend, and so happens to be a guy. But besides him I feel like I have no one.
One of my sisters is super religious and her religion will keep her from attending my wedding therefore she’s a no, and the other sister I plan to ask her though her and I don’t have the best relationship either.
Our wedding isn’t until 2022 so I have time to plan, but just thinking who would I even ask to the party upsets me.
Anyways, has anyone chosen not to have a bridal party? Have you asked folks to be in your party who you’re not close to just so you can fill up space?
I wish my fiancé could be in my party 😂, he’s truly my best and at this point in life my only true friend.