So, my brother has always been a bully to me when it comes to my body. He always has something negative to say whether it's about my face, or my hair, but mostly my weight.
I live in Kansas and he lives in California, so we barely see each other, but guess what, last thanksgiving, after about 2 years didn't see each other, the first thing he said to me was "you hair is too long, it looks so ugly on you, you should cut it out"
When we both still lived in my parents house, he always said something like "your arm is so big, it looks disgusting" or "your legs look like a cabbage, fat", or "your teeth is so crooked, you should get it fixed"
i honestly dont know what's the point of him telling me those horrible stuff, I was very comfortable in my own body because I didnt think my arm is fat or my legs is big.
But it changed when he commented on my wedding dress.
I got my wedding dress about a month ago and my sister took a bunch of pictures and sent it to my brother, and his first and only comment was 'she looks so fat" which really really affecting me. I cried so hard when i heard what he said and i refused to eat after that. Every time I look at myself in the mirror I started to think that I am fat and my belly looks disgusting. I have ZERO desire to eat anymore. My fiance and my mom keep telling me that I look fine and i am not fat at all. But i guess my brother's words already went deep inside my head and i dont know how to get it out.
I dont know why this one is really affecting me. I guess its because its my wedding dress, and i wanna look pretty in my wedding dress, and being called "fat" in my own wedding dress is extremely hurtful.
