So my fiance and I just got engaged a month ago and we are trying to hurry up and book our venue for fall 2023 before the good ones all get booked up!! So far, my mom has tried to twist my arm at least 3 times into having a church ceremony even though BOTH my mother and I are atheist, and my fiance isn't religious or a believer either. My mom is concerned her extended family and possibly my dad would prefer a church ceremony, but my dad nor my extended family have pushed me in that direction so far.
On top of that, I am trying to keep the guest count low so I can afford the venue I want without having to pay too much. My mom insists on inviting 10 of her friends, particularly two that I feel STRONGLY that I do not want there (a couple, triggering past for myself with these people). I tried even telling her to limit her guest count to 40 people on our side of the family, but she wouldn't agree to that. My mom is contributing money for our wedding so has tried to control certain aspects because she is contributing. I have tried telling her that I don't want her help financially if she is going to have so much control, but she says she must invite these friends even if she doesn't help pay for it.
I have come to terms with having zero control over the guest list because my mom has made it clear she isn't budging and I'm sick of arguing with her about it and feeling like the bad guy afterward. However, after having several discussions about wedding planning with my parents and leaving feeling defeated, upset, and guilty for arguing against what they want, it's not surprising that I am no longer excited for any of this wedding stuff at this point. Any ideas on how to set boundaries on the control family have over our wedding? My fiance has been saying that the wedding is unfortunately not for us but for everybody else, and I am starting to realize how right he is. Also if you guys have any tips to get my excitement back because I don't even want to think about my wedding at this point and it's been something I have wanted for so long.