I never thought wedding planning would cause me to have a mental breakdown. And I know it wouldn't have, if covid didn't happen... I'm truly at a loss for words and don't know what to do anymore. All the uncertainties make it that much harder to make a final decision.
We were planning on still having a small ceremony (with just us) on what would've been our original wedding date. Then we'd be able to pick a new date in September. but what if that new date came around, and the world is still in shambles - and we'd have to reschedule/cancel again?! I only wanted to have a small ceremony now, if we're able to still have everything as planned next year - but I'm realizing there's no guarantee and it's driving me crazy.
We're thinking about trashing both the plans. Not eloping, and not rescheduling the "big" wedding and just having a small ceremony with 20 people or less, and having a "reception" or "I Do BBQ" of some sort at the ranch we live on after. And we'd have everyone wear masks. The only thing is, I wouldn't be thinking about another plan if only I knew what the future holds and whether or not next year would be any better.
Driving myself insane. I know we all deserve the big dream wedding we had originally planned, but I don't want to postpone only for this all to happen again. Thinking about just throwing in the towel and keeping it simple to save me from another meltdown.