No support from my family

Heyyy all!

So, my wedding date is November 18th of this year and I already knew that we’d have a small wedding (35 people) his family his family being the majority, but it seems that only 2 people from my family will be attending, to be honest I just don’t want anyone from my family to be there.

So I planned our wedding date before my fiancé proposed, my fiancé and I worked it out that way lol, I plan the date and he’d plan the proposal (we’re not the most traditional) and I did a group chat the day after he proposed which was the 21st of this month, and I included a few family members from my mother’s side I received not a single response from one family member, my uncle, when he called, was more concerned about filling me in on his life and not really on my engagement, my grandmother just gave a simple “congratulations.” My other uncle just gave me a simple congratulations, didn’t inquire about how the proposal happened, when it happened, my reaction.

I just don’t feel that close with anyone in my family, not close enough to invite them. I don’t feel comfortable with anyone of them being there. My fiancé’s family is so excited, his mother was in tears from the excitement!!! It’s like the people in my life are more concerned and consumed with themselves and their unhappiness or happiness to even think about something or someone outside of their bubble.

My dad has never been there for me, as he was always in and out prison, then got sentenced to 13 years in prison and after getting released he was deported. So I just have no-one except for my brother and daughter, I guess I’d feel embarrassed if only two people from my side shows up. I just really don’t want to invite these people out of obligation because they’re “family” some of them I barely speak with and it would be awkward.

Sigh!!! Any and all feedback is appreciated. I don’t know if I’m looking for advice or if I’m just venting lol