I've never wanted a big wedding but I wanted a smaller one with maybe 40 people including my close friends and family. Currently where I live we're only allowed SIX people at a wedding so basically the bride, groom and each of their parents. Forget your siblings, grandparents, best friends who have been there for you through thick and thin, they all stay home. I don't like the sound of that.
My FH is pushing for an April wedding. He says lets not delay the wedding any longer and to just have a wedding in his house. It's not what I imagined and I know I'll be full of regret in the future for not having the wedding I wanted. I already have my ballgown dress bought.. I can't wear that in the house? He has his tux and said he doesn't mind not wearing it. I don't just want to sell off the dress I never got to wear, or keep it at the back of my wardrobe and see the dress I loved but never wore. That's not the way I want to start married life.
There's also no talk of a honeymoon from him? He says it's the least of our worries right now but I want one? I don't just want to get married then go back and live at his parents house so I think I'm going to push for that. I'm starting to feel cornered and like I'm under a lot of pressure to push what I want aside e.g. wedding, dress, honeymoon because FH is in a hurry to get married? I don't want to push the wedding further than June 2021 though as I have a job near his place that I need to start in September.
Sorry if this sounds jumbled. Emotions are just running high at the moment.