Not the wedding of my Dreams- covid edition

Anyone else feeling utterly devestated they didn't get the day they wanted because of COVID-19? I am feeling very alone! I got denied any piece of the wedding I had always dreamed of, the only silver lining is that I got to marry the man that is perfect for me! We have a big wedding still currently planned for the end of November, that was supposed to be the only wedding, but due to the virus shutting everything down and me being a teacher with an uncertain future, we felt it would be best to go ahead and have a small backyard wedding (literally in my mother's tiny house and backyard). This way whatever happened we would be married and could start our lives together, plus even if November still happens I don't think many people will actually attend, which is also disappointing. However, for this wedding I planned everything in a matter of two weeks. I ordered a tea dress off of Amazon, we made the food ourselves (nachos), I made my own cake the day before, and my own bouquet too. I did my own hair and makeup, my brother-in-law and myself did the photography (yes I was taking pictures of my own wedding). The days leading up had a major disappointment each day, my ring came in a little too small, my mother was having constant pain from her fibromyalgia barely able to walk, my grandfather wouldn't be able to come to walk me down the aisle, because he was sick with an infection, not sure if my father would be able to attend or walk me due to late stage Alzheimer's, my best friend was told to quarentine due to possibly being in contact with someone else who thought they might have COVID (the evening before the wedding), and to top it all off my fiance and I got into a huge fight the night before the wedding. The day of I felt helpless and sad, instead of what I should be, nervous and excited. The whole ceremony seemed like a bust, my fiance stood on the wrong side, he was nervous I guess and stood there in shock instead of holding my hands, our officiant a good friend of ours said my fiance's last name wrong, and called me by a different first name. I also at some points had to run the music too. During the so-called reception I was working and my fiance felt isolated in a corner, I was sad his family wasn't even telling him congratulations, and I was sad I was having to work and leave him there alone. That is not how it should be even in a backyard wedding. The only plus was our wedding night was amazing thanks to the generous hotel stay paid for by my sister. But the second day, which was also supposed to be nice and was a lot of money for us, was horrible. I know post-wedding blues is normal, but I don't think it is supposed to be like this. I am upset I am I am sure I am not the only bride feeling this way. COVID-19 brides out there are you feeling the same way?