There are some days where I just can't wait to have kids. There are other days where I can't imagine having kids, and not being able to do what I want.
I think most of this undecided-ness comes from my family influences. It's hard because my parents didn't have kids until their mid-30's. They stressed being completely financially stable, traveling, having time to do "me" before settling down (which is what they did). On the other hand, FH's parents got pregnant 3 months after marriage, had 5 kids, and always tell me not to worry about being completely financially stable, as they raised 5 kids on a military salary.
UGH. I just don't know !