****: I started going to a new church and one of the ladies in my small group was already engaged when I first met, but we slowly became friends and she last-minute decided to ask me to be a bridesmaid. I was thrilled and we were good friends, she became like a mentor to me but it wasn't the healthiest kind of friendship, a little codependent.
Fast forward to today: Covid happened so my FH and I decided to downgrade our wedding from 180 to about 30 with family and whoever is in our bridal parties. She and I aren't as close since she moved to a different church and I didn't ask her to be a bridesmaid, and she was pretty bummed when I told her I wasn't going to ask her or anyone from our small group because I wanted only about 4 and a big group would stress me out (side notes: 1) she has a strong personality that would clash with at least 2 in my bridal party but I definitely didn't tell her that, and 2) I wouldn't want to ask her without also asking the other 2 girls in our small group which would put me at 7 bridesmaids, almost double). However, we were bridesmaids for another friend in our small group so we saw each other from time to time throughout the year. Granted, usually months pass by between the interactions, but she has asked the exact same question the last 3 times we saw each other: "If it's safer by January (my wedding), would you have a bigger wedding?" I am probably overreacting and being sensitive about why it's this question that keeps coming up, and to give her the benefit of the doubt, perhaps she forgot she even asked before, but I've given her the same answer all 3 times: I don't want to replan a wedding, and the smaller the safer regardless if anything changes the next 2 months. I secretly wonder if she's asking because she expected something for her, or if she's just curious about what I decide since our friend had like 100 ppl at her wedding recently. Given our history and most definitely the awkwardness of the situation since I was a bridesmaid for her wedding and she's not even invited to my wedding, I'm kind of dreading seeing her next week with our small group for a casual catchup because I don't want to get asked this question anymore. Since it's not a one-on-one hangout, I want to be cordial about my answer if she ever asks... Gosh I have no idea how I come off, but even rereading my whole thing I'm like, "If this was AITA on Reddit I probably ATA."