Rant ahead because I feel like I need to get it off my chest. Be prepared for a wild ride
I’ve always wanted to have a big, beautiful, and extra wedding 😂 I’m not stressed out about paying for it or planning because I know what I want. Me and my fiancé are determined to save up for it and the honeymoon and were about to take second jobs. The problem is the family (my side to be exact). You see, me and my mom don’t really get along and she is extremely religious to the point even our priest don’t like her (she’s strictly catholic). My mother in law is a lesbian and my mom don’t know. I have never let her meet her in order to keep peace between families. There also has been a lot of drama between my family and me recently . And my mom already invited her “friends” who are also just as crazy and they like to prove which one of them is “more holy” *cringe*. On thanksgiving of of them even told my mom I’m a actress in porn which I’m not and yet she still wants them to be there. My mom wouldn’t listen to me even though I’m paying everything with my own money. Her go to is I need to respect and obey her like god commanded because she’s my parent.
So, Me and my fiancé decided to have a private cheaper wedding. Be “alone” when we say our vows and afterwards reserve space in a gaming bar or something like that and only invite friends and siblings we are close to. It’s not what I dreamed about but I know I will enjoy it a lot better than having a more expensive one and it ends up in world star. But he wants his mom to be there when we say our vows because she has been through so much while raising him and I respect that because she is a strong and amazing woman. But I feel like I’m a bad daughter because I don’t want my mom there even though me and my mom fight. She is the only family member close to me and she has done some stuff for me too before it went up in flames. I don’t know what to do and get rid of guilt and anxiety