Reciprocating moh for cousin

Debating on two matrons of honor even though my gut really only wants one... I was the maid of honor in my best friends wedding last year, and was then asked by my cousin (whom I grew up very close with, always more like sisters) to be her maid of honor for her wedding this December. However, she is also having a matron of honor (her FH’s twin sister). I was actually surprised to be asked to be MOH for my cousin because we are not as close as we used to be and only see each other MAYBE once a month. I know I mentioned to her years ago that she would be my MOH one day when I got married, but me and my best friend are SUPER close, have more similar tastes, and she also happened to introduce me to my FH (her cousin, lol). I am definitely asking my best friend to be matron of honor, but torn as to whether or not I also should ask my cousin to be matron of honor (she’ll be married by the time my wedding comes next year). I’ve always been somewhat opposed to having more than one because I feel it is less of an “honor” that way, and really wanted my best friend to feel special like I did on her wedding day. Also, I know my best friend would not be hurt if she wasnt the only MOH, she already mentioned working together with my cousin (which is when I started wondering if I needed to reciprocate MOH to my cousin). My mom thinks I should “suck it up” and have them both. I really don’t want my family to be asking why I was my cousins MOH but she wasn’t mine. I NEED HELP. Am I just being dramatic!?