As a teenager I gagged at the thought of having kids. Over time I started to think that I did want kids. By the time I met DH I was certain I wanted kids. I had baby fever for a while leading up to the wedding... then recently I babysat SIL's kids for about 8 hours with DH.
It was torture. The kids are 2 and 4 and I have never wanted to escape so much in my life. I don't know how to describe it - it was completely exhausting and I found myself getting supper annoyed with the 4-year-old. I mean, they're kids, I'm not saying they were terrible or anything... but it's like, it really hit me that I am 100% not ready for them. And I have no idea when I will be. I like my alone time. I like being able to go out. Now I'm second-guessing whether I want kids at all. I feel terrible. Anyone else go through something like this? SIL asked if we could babysit again the day before Thanksgiving, and I honestly just don't want to. Do I not like kids anymore? I don't understand x.x