How many of you feel like you’re starting over...with plans, expectations, etc.?
I never realized how much energy came out of planning a wedding. At times I’ve been buzzing with excitement, and lately I’ve just felt drained due to stress.
I feel as though I’ve had to let go of certain things including expectations and a little bit of selfishness in order to do what’s best given our current circumstances. I feel as though I am adjusting, looking forward to new things and changes with plans. I am also grieving the loss of a wedding we dreamed of simultaneously. It’s an interesting paradox and I wonder how you’re feeling or dealing with everything.
Yesterday I felt so exhausted and while I felt the urge to write another vendor or research one more thing, I gave into my tired body and just laid down and took a 15 minute nap.
I have my daily meditation practice to come back to time and again...
A good glass of wine helps bring a little relaxation and ease.
I guess the bottom line is I hope everyone is doing what they can do, or know how to do to take care of themselves during this time. Based on my own experience and everything that’s going on, I wonder how everyone else is doing in these strange times. It’s easy to become self-centered and think “why is this happening to me?” At least for me it is.