So ya'll have seen my recent posts about being broke, trying to do everything DIY & the stress of that. To top it off with, past issues in our relationship have been coming to the surface again, showing me that they arent resolved. & the posts on the bachelor strip club stuff really got me thinking, I really dont trust my FH. Well I do but I dont, I trust him w some things, but others I dont. So really, the trust in this relationship isnt up to par. Made me realize marrying someone you dont trust isnt right, when trust is a big foundation of a good marriage.
Lately I've been overloaded with stress, not being able to afford even the simple wedding we wanted, I just started working but the money is slow (I'm an independent contractor, I get paid per client, not per hour) some of FH debt has surfaced leaving us more broke. Then old issues coming up causing more pain, all this happening & I've been trying to believe it'll work out, we will fix it. But I feel like I'm lying to
