I revealed to my family yesterday that I am pregnant and expecting number 9 in April. I am experiencing complications during this pregnancy to where there is a good chance I will miss carry, back story my sister cousions and I have been close since birth, I have 8 kids my oldest daughter was a victim of shaken baby syndrome by the hands of her bio dad. The regret I have is real and deep. I had moved on with my kids and have met an amazing man my fiancé who has took on the father role to my kids and is her dad, So two of my bridesmaids who are my cousins wrote to me " are you kidding me there are 2 people who would die to have a baby and you cant quit having them" my cousin can't have kids and my sister has to go through ivf treatments and are struggling to get pregnant, My heart breaks for her. My sister was happy for me and wishes me a long happy pregnancy with a healthy baby, So My cousin calls me on the phone which is rare I am more of a text person., this is where things take a turn for the worse, She is bi polar and has a lot of mental issues I forgive her what she said but at the same time I feel like I should hold her accountable. So she was in one of her episodes and told me that she thinks that I shook my daughter, that I deserve to have my baby be a still born and all the complications with this pregnancy, and it's my fault that my daughter has cerebral palsy. That she doesn't want to me a bridesmaid and she is looking forward to sabotaging my wedding., oh and because my fiancé must be mentally disabled to want to love me and my kids. I haven't asked my bridal party yet I was thinking of just having my kids, my sister and my 2 best friends in the bridal party. is that okay or do I have to include family?
sorry for the long post
